2-20-06 some notes
Mom's perspective is one-sided, angry and unchangeable.
I feel like an outsider.
I miss "can't wait to see ya" the excitement Dad and I always had about seeing each other.
I can't believe that will never happen again.
I want to fix us but I can't even fix me.
Too many "how are YOU doing?"s. All sincere, but what does one say? "Well, I suck actually and I wish someone would lock me in a quiet place for about two months and pay my bills in the meantime."
I hate that I suck...and they have each other. In me it's all "stuffed down".
The hub is gone and we're all just spokes spinning away.
I feel like an outsider.
I miss "can't wait to see ya" the excitement Dad and I always had about seeing each other.
I can't believe that will never happen again.
I want to fix us but I can't even fix me.
Too many "how are YOU doing?"s. All sincere, but what does one say? "Well, I suck actually and I wish someone would lock me in a quiet place for about two months and pay my bills in the meantime."
I hate that I suck...and they have each other. In me it's all "stuffed down".
The hub is gone and we're all just spokes spinning away.
posted by Agnes at 5:29 AM
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